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Archive for February, 2012

Caught in Turmoil – Two of Swords

Twos represent duality, masculine and feminine, yin and yan, light and dark.

“The two of swords in depicted by a vulnerable young girl walking tightrope over a rough sea, holding two crossed swords above her heart.  She is trying to balance opposing forces within herself and is caught up in so much emotional turmoil that she is afraid to remove the blindfold in case she topples into the sea.  This is the card of stalemate when a clear head is needed to clarify a situation that is emotionally charged.  This card often appears when there is an issue involving negotiable conflicts between partners.  Trying to be fair on all sides can create a state of tension or inertia.  By facing the facts, tension will be broken and the situation will be resolved.”    Spiral Tarot – Kay Steventon                              

Your emotions are brought into more conscious focus over these few days. What is affected is the female or instinctual part of your nature, as well as your home and family, and you may find yourself thinking about these areas of your life while this transit is in effect. You could encounter conflicts with loved ones, especially parents and children, and communication might be problematic. You may have to make some conscious decisions regarding your living space, or deal with a minor crisis involving a house project. Your attitude toward others may soften and you are better able to express your feelings during this transit.  Transiting Mercury in strong opposition with natal Moon.

I pulled the two of swords and then looked at my chart.  I am totally feeling all of the above and probably more.  Very tumultuous and irritated today.  I must get to Higher Ground and put myself above these mental conflicts.  Facing the facts  so I can get to a point where I can speak clearly of the cause of my emotional state at this time is my goal for today.

Transiting Chiron Is Square My Natal Sun

Transiting Chiron in strong square (forming, 1.2 degrees) with natal Sun

This transit is strongest (within 2 degrees) from Apr 23, 2011 to Jul 25, 2011, no exact; from Feb 13, 2012 to Apr 19, 2012, exact on Mar 15, 2012; from Aug 5, 2012 to Feb 13, 2013, exact on Sep 17, 2012 R, Jan 9, 2013.

During this period of time you are going through a potentially painful process of examining and re-aligning your self-concept, possibly as a result of old wounds coming up for you. Early childhood episodes that in some way were damaging to your self-concept may come back to haunt you. It may also be that fresh experiences bring these issues to the fore, issues which could be related to your father or another significant mentor figure from your past. These figures can be an important part of our ego structure as we go through life. The reason such painful issues are reemerging into consciousness is for the purpose of healing these issues, and finally moving beyond them. You may find when you have gone through this process that you feel yourself coming into a broader view of your existence. It may even be that some of your ego needs are no longer quite so acute as before. There is a way in which ego serves the soul’s evolution and a way in which it just seems to get lodged like a boulder in the path of progress. Changes that strip away some facets of your ego may be good for you in the long run and serve to strengthen your true inner self-confidence, as a more well-rounded view of your life as a whole is revealed to you.

Old wounds; early  childhood episodes.  Damaging.  Hmmmmmmm.   They were beat into me (“I’m only doing it for your own good”) and it’s difficult to stir them up as they want to stick at the bottom and continue to scorch.  Sorry ’bout that.  It’s time to scrub the pot.

 

Let’s Just See

Transiting Moon in strong sextile
(exact at 7:39  am) with natal Pluto

The planetary energies flow together, open into new possibilities, new connections.
Your emotions are subject to deep and far-reaching changes today, which may involve your relationship with your mother or other significant female figures in your life. During these few hours that this transit is in effect, deep-rooted emotions, long buried in your unconscious, may come to the surface of your conscious mind. You also could become aware of old patterns of behavior that represent knee-jerk reactions rather than conscious responses. You benefit when you remain calm and just quietly examine what comes up for you at this time. Events that happen may symbolize important parts of your psyche that need more attention in your conscious life. It is wise to try to focus on what is really going on for you, beneath the surface your everyday existence.

My rhythms flow with the Moon.  I was looking at my transits this morning and decided to post this quickly.  Looks as if it could be a bit of a  “heads up”.  I’ve only been out of bed for 45 minutes.  Let’s see what the day brings.

The Moon is in Gemini

 Transiting Moon in Gemini (3° Gem 00′ 28″)

For these two days your emotions are more deeply felt, and you may tune in to other’s emotions as well. You strongly feel your security needs at this time and you tend to stick close to home, or to family and loved ones. You are sensitive and may have a tendency to withdraw from the world. It is a powerful time for you to explore your feelings to the fullest over this brief period. You could also profitably spend energy in making your home environment more comfortable for yourself.

Well that puts it in a nutshell, to say the least.  I woke up this morning with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes.  Drama is not my strong point and I sorta, kinda bought into some that way thrown in my path.  I could have chosen to walk around it but as it had to do with Spunky I just had to step a little bit into it; just to see what it was all about.  By not contributing to it I thought I would somehow be free of its draining energy.  Of course, that was wrong.  I’m exhausted just from association and would like to “withdraw from the world”.  I won’t, though.  Instead I’m allowing myself to feel while remembering we all have our own path.  I can’t walk anyone else’s any more than they can walk mine.

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