Our past is neither an accident nor a mistake. We have been where we needed to be, with the necessary people. We can embrace our history, with its pain, its imperfections, its mistakes, even its tragedies. It is uniquely ours; it was intended just for us. Today, we are right where we need to be. Our present circumstances are exactly as they need to be, for now. ~ Melody Beattie
Transiting Mercury in Square with Natal Chiron
For this brief period of time, you will become more conscious of the energy for personal transformation and healing in your life. This will likely mean exposing some form of deep-seated pain for the purpose of working through old issues and ultimately healing these issues. During this brief period of time, you may be blessed to provide the impetus for healing to others. You may also feel healing energy come into your life from a meeting with another person during the course of this transit. It may also be that communication with other people brings to light certain areas of your psyche that you would rather not have exposed, and that can be quite painful for you to connect with. But getting in touch with these areas is for your ultimate benefit, for the more integration you can achieve within your psyche, the more whole you are and the more you can bring yourself forward to be of help to other people on the same journey of discovery.
My daughter said “Mom, it’s okay to look at the past. Just don’t stare too hard”. I consider this good advice. Staring tends to made me maudlin and depressed so no, I haven’t been staring, I’ve just been reflecting on where I am today while realizing that I’m actually happy with myself and others.
Way back when, in Time Passed, I made mistakes I should have learned from. Except I didn’t. I continued to exercise the same behavior over and over again. I thought I could change outcomes because I was different, special or whatever. If I’d been wiser and given more thought to what I was doing I might have avoided the pain that continued to compound. I was, however, incapable of rational thought as dependence fed the addiction that pushed me to practice insanity. I didn’t have to practice too hard, either. It quickly became rather natural; sometimes with its own language and invisible friends included at no extra charge. When I look at where I started, where I went and how great my life is today I’m grateful that Passed is gone and that the gap between then and now is getting wider each day.
NOW, I understand, that Time Passed continually makes me Me. I am the sum of my experiences, in constant motion with change and growth. There have been so many good times; happy times I remember with warm thoughts, smiles and joyful tears as well as those sad days, those periods of pain, fear, anger and drama. Those times can’t be changed but as long as I can accept every bit of it, good and bad, for what it is/was and know I’m okay, it’s fine. I also know it could have been worse. I could be dead.
My Life Time NOW is filled with healing and love, friends that stayed true and new ones, too. I have my health and my happiness is free. My circle is widening and includes such a wide array of people, many of whom I could have never guessed would have blessed me with their presence in my life. A whole new world has opened up to me. There is so much in NOW. My children and grandchildren have blessed my life more than I could ever have thought or wished for. I have a fantastic relationship with a mentally healthy person. In the program we talk about “happy, joyous and free”. I am happy, I’ve found joy and best of all I am free to choose my own reality. Thank GOD.