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Breakthrough

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This has been a summer of change.  14 states and 6,000 miles on the odometer. We skirted the cities and bypassed the interstates,  spending our time in nature and staying in beautiful locations.  It’s been amazing and I so feel blessed that I could take it all in while also having time and space to be quiet and contemplate.  This has been (and continues to be) a time full of powerful transits and I’ve been powerfully affected by them.  A few have kicked my okole but hey! I’m still standing here in one piece.  I didn’t succumb to the darkness and I haven’t ignored them.  Being willing to listen and then really listening has made me realize that I am becoming more authentic.  I know that loving and accepting all of me has made me more open, loving and accepting of all of you. A meaningful breakthrough has gifted me with some clarity, given me some direction, has allowed forgiveness to further expedite healing of old wounds…. yes !!! and has opened my mind and my heart to another dimension that I am just beginning to experience.  I am breaking into new territory; a place in which the old rules don’t work anymore.  I’m a little scared.  I’ll admit it.  But I am going to continue to follow my na’au, be as centered as I can and to remember to be kind. We’re all on this earth for a purpose.  I’m being led and paying attention to the signs is keeping me on track.

I’ve journaled to record feelings, thoughts, dreams and events.  My camera has been at hand and I’ve taken some great shots.   But what I was really pushed to do was meditate with music and draw.  The images just started coming out and I haven’t been able to stop.  I am able to be in the present without any mind chatter and I come into a wonderful bliss-like state.  Each piece expresses what I am feeling during the period of time I work on it.  While I draw my mind is clear, silent and open to the messages I receive.

I did this particular drawing between July 7 and July 10 at Gros Ventre National Park near Jackson Hole, WY.  The Grand Water Trine was forming (a link to the chart is at the bottom of this page).  On July 7 Saturn was stationed direct.  July 8 was New Moon in Cancer and July 9 saw the Sun and Mercury meet in an inferior conjunction.  I finished on July 10 when Jupiter was in exact trine to my natal Chiron while Saturn was conjunct and Neptune trine it.  There have been many factors at work this summer but the forementioned and these transits (below… with my natal Chiron involved) stood out to me as representative of this point in time.

Transiting Jupiter in strong trine (exact) with natal Chiron

Jul 1, 2013 to Jul 19, 2013, exact Jul 10, 2013.

The planetary energies flow smoothly; the connection is easy and beneficial.

Your religious philosophy and broad intellectual framework are subject to a certain amount of re-examination. Painful experiences in these areas could lead you to a new outlook on life. Also at this time, you may feel a revitalization of the healing awareness within yourself, possibly in connection to the process of work done in connecting to old wounds, received in earlier developmental stages. When we reconnect with repressed and potentially painful feelings that have been buried away in the depths of our psyche we inhabit these rejected parts of ourselves and become more whole. At this time too, you may connect with a higher purpose in the work that you do, especially if this work involves helping people to heal in some way, and to grow in their own understanding of who they really are. You may take up the study of new-age healing techniques during this period, or in other ways inhabit the vision of wholeness and freedom from old pain that you feel emanates from the intuitive clarity provided by your higher self.

Transiting Saturn in strong conjunction with natal Chiron

This transit is strongest (within 2 degrees)

Jun 13, 2013 to Jul 31, 2013.

The strongest blend of the energies represented by these two planets.

Your psyche is subject to a stressful and potentially vitalizing time, as the very structure of your life is subject to painful realizations, leading to great changes in your self-concept. At this time also, difficulties with authority figures may emerge, or your relationship with your father may challenging, or the way you live your life in relation to the structure of society itself may be coming to a point where changes that have been in the works for some time are ready to burst forth into your conscious awareness. There may be old wounds with your father, or with the parental care and discipline you received in early childhood, that re-emerge at this time, hopefully for purposes of healing these issues and the potentially debilitating effects that they may have on your life. At this time also, the self-concept that you have had up to now may be changing, leading to a renewed sense of your own healing potential. Through a slow concentrated effort you may begin to connect with a higher purpose in the work that you do at this time, especially if this work involves helping people to heal in some way, and to grow in their own understanding of who they really are.

Transiting Neptune in strong trine with natal Chiron

from Jun 25, 2013 to Mar 1, 2014, exact Sep 20, 2013 R, Jan 2, 2014

The planetary energies flow smoothly; the connection is easy and beneficial.

This can be a time of great change and positive results for you. What is affected that part of yourself that is a dissolver of old structures, for the purpose of making way for some hitherto unseen aspect of yourself to emerge, and you are likely to undergo a transformation of your spiritual values at this time. You may experience a degree of tension between an old and outmoded way of being and a new vision of what could be possible. The shadow side is disappointment with yourself, for not being further along on the path you envision, and there could be confusion about what you truly want at this time. But the joy of this spiritual journey of discovery comes from making peace with yourself and beginning to fulfill your dreams. The gap between the ideal and the merely real, although wide, could become much closer for you at this time. Something new, deep inside you, is coming into birth, and you are learning how to hang out with the uncertainty of it all. The world as it presents itself to you during this period is not so pat and simple as it seemed. There are angels in the woodwork calling out for you to listen with your inner senses. You are dreaming a new realization into being for yourself, ultimately a new world, since the world is really what we are dreaming into being with each new moment. If you dream wisely at this time, you can make a difference, for yourself, and for others around you as well.

Sunrise Chart for Jackson Hole, WY July 7, 2013

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